Ignorance is NOT always bliss

I write this post today with a heavy heart. With guilt and shame, but most of all sadness. You see, I just happened to come across a blog post yesterday that informed me of something that I never knew. Something I had questioned once, but never really looked into any further. Some of you may read MckMama's blog My Charming Kids. I honestly have only been to her site maybe 3-4 times, but yesterday I read this post and was very surprised to learn that "the Pill" has abortive effects. That can't be, I immediately thought. No way. Nathan was sitting beside me and he couldn't believe it either. He had even asked one of my OB/Gyns specifically about how the Pill works and we were told that it only inhibited ovulation. But folks, that is simply not true. The Pill works through not only one, but 3 mechanisms:

1. inhibiting ovulation (the primary mechanism)
2. thickening the cervical mucus, thereby making it more difficult for sperm to travel to the egg
3. thinning and shriveling the lining of the uterus to the point that it is unable or less able to facilitate the implantation of the newly fertilized egg

Read these articles that will articulate the facts much better than I can:

http://www.pregnantpause.org/abort/untold.htm

http://www.epm.org/artman2/publish/prolife_birth_control_pill/A_Longer_Condensation_of_Does_The_Birth_Control_Pill_Cause_Abortions.shtml

I know there are several more articles, but one is all it took for me. Please take the time and read them now. They may change your life. It did mine.

Wow... I call myself pro-life but at the same time I have been taking "the Pill". It literally makes me sick. I have shed several tears over this... but unfortunately I can't change the past. I've been trying to do the math. I've been married 7 years- that's about 87 months- subtract 18 months of that time due to pregnancy= been on some form of the pill (even the mini-pill works this way) roughly about 64 months. It breaks my heart to think that I could have unknowingly aborted a child 64 times just from taking the Pill. I do realize that is probably not the case, but in all honesty, no one knows but God just how the Pill has worked in my body each month. Hopefully it only inhibited ovulation all these years, but the fact is there is just no way to know. Immediately, our decision was made; we will no longer use the Pill. No, I do NOT want 18 kids, but there are other ways to prevent pregnancies.

I really want to hear your comments on this. Were you informed that the pill could work like this? Or is it a shocking discovery to you like it was to me? And what about the moral ramifications? Am I held accountable for this even though I didn't know about it? I do realize this is a very controversial topic- write anonymously if you want. I just hope I am not the only one out there who didn't know...